This week has started out kind of…frumpy. We got a very short, very lovely thirty-six hours with Ryan before he was pulled away to work 1800 miles away for another two weeks. The first few days after he goes out of town there is always something a little off about the energy of the house….
Smart feeds and algorithms are going to fail us. Follower counts and likes are going to fail us. People will undoubtedly fail us, whether they intend to or not. More importantly – the expectations we create in our heads that revolve around those things will cause even bigger disappointments, leaving us feeling failed even more than we…
Hello Love, It was so lovely to see your face this weekend, even for the short amount of time we did have with you. We missed you lots. I know it was far too short and wasn’t picture perfect but it was good, it was full of real life and even better – our life. …
We let the kids stay up later than usual, we put them down to bed and we stayed up past three am talking about life, the now, the later, the news and caught up just like old times. The good kind of late night conversations where it feels like it’s been 15 minutes and it’s…
Oh October, how did you arrive so soon? I’m not complaining, as I know you bring the best weather and most beautiful colors I’m just not sure where this year is going. I feel like each time I blink I am in a time hop. October is when the busy really begins for our family…
I remember sitting on our bed crying, overwhelmed with contradicting “advice” from different nurses, different forum moms, etc. when I was a brand new mom to A. When to breastfeed, how often at night, to wake her or not wake her to feed. I finally found the answer that would help lead me through that…
The past five weeks have been nothing short of vast sweetness. They have been filled with change, sweetness, baby snuggles, watching my baby girl become a big sister and my husband fall in love with our son. It’s been a change, it’s been different but it’s been so good. Welcoming B at the…
Dear B, It feels like it was just weeks ago that I came out of the bathroom and told your daddy that another babe would be coming and he stood there elated with tear filled eyes. Now tomorrow we will rise before the sun, load into the car while your big sister sleeps, and drive…
I notice it in the quiet of the night and the dead of the afternoon, the moments pull me in and I take a deep breath. This is what life is all about. It’s the rocking my sweet toddler and the giggles and the kisses. It’s the sound of her little voice throughout the…
The fierce reality that life will be different in a short ten weeks hit my like a sack of bricks as I snuggled A as she fell asleep for a nap this weekend. There will be fewer afternoon nap time snuggles together, accompanied by a gentle push for her to be more independent because I…
I’m sitting here, with A laughing and giggling in the other room with her daddy and a sweet babe growing inside my womb. A sweet girl that I can’t imagine the last 28 months of my life without and a growing boy that kicks and moves and fills up my heart more and more every day. The…
Two. The number of pregnancies I’ve been blessed with. Four. The amount of pregnancy progress photos I’ve taken this time around. A dozen or so. The amount of times I’ve heard “oh my gosh! You’re pregnant?! I had no idea.” They tell you that the second pregnancy is different but until you are in that…
For me, January feel like it had 7 weeks instead of 4. Not necessarily in a bad way but golly it felt like the month was never going to end. Usually for me January 1 is a time I get really excited, it feel like a fresh start – like most people. This year though, for me,…
It’s hard for me to wrap my head around the fact Christmas is literally in 3 days. Maybe it’s the fact that the year itself has seemed to fly by faster than I thought possible or that I thought there would be more snow thus far to make it feel more like Christmas. As we’ve…
Maybe we are like mosaics, filled with things that have broken us in the worst possible ways and wrecked us in the best possible ways with a flexible mortar that bends and molds for more pieces to come flooding in throughout our lives shaping us into what makes us who we are in the rawest…
A couple years ago my Aunt text me asking me if there was anything from my great grandmother’s home, as they were going through it getting ready for it to sell. I told her there wasn’t anything that I could think of that I really wanted as there wasn’t anything that really came to mind…
There I sat looking around the blank, off-white walls, naked of photos & wall decor mostly packed up. A house that we called home for the last three years. It was the longest we’d lived in a rental and our least favorite home we lived in throughout the last eight years. We had been desiring to leave the…
If I’ve learned anything within the last several years of my life, it’s that good things take time, patience has never been easy, but it worth it and there’s a right time for everything. It’s shown true through the years of trying for a baby, searching for a home for two years and even desiring…
There’s a bitter-sweetness to being back in a place you haven’t been in some time. Emotions flood back in, what you felt in that snapshot of time, the joys, the dreams, and the struggles that you seemingly left in that place. A couple weekends ago, I found myself back down where my old office was….