Knowing My Boundaries

Midweek last week a business connection turned friend called me to see if I would be interested in a potential new business client. I was thrilled, referrals are the biggest compliment and that’s where I get most of my freelance work. She have me a small idea of what the gal was looking for and asked if I thought it might be something I would be interested in talking more about if she passed my name along. I gave her the go ahead.

I waited for the woman to make the initial contact and she did the next day but during that twenty hour time lapse I really had a heavy heart about things and felt compelled to be very upfront with her about what my priorities are and what I was willing to take on. In my response to her I told her that my daughter who is a toddler is very busy and that I veer from extra heavy workloads so she can be my priority. I also told her I’m very efficient in nap times and evenings. Then proceeded with the experience I have like she asked. I ended the email with an offer to speak further and if she didn’t feel like I was a good fit I would be willing to point her in the direction of others I would recommend.

I never heard back. *cue the crickets*

After not hearing back I started second guessing how upfront I was in the email. I started feeling like I let my friend down that referred her to me. But when I really thought about it – my heart was content with the honesty I put out there because it was the truth.

I have learned what I can handle and what I can’t while putting A first. I’ve had days where other things have taken my main focus and it leaves me feeling guilty and my kiddo feeling irritated and frustrated. It doesn’t work for either of us when I put too much on my plate.

I once again deleted twitter off my phone again because it’s like a force field that sucks me in and I open it and browse to pass time. I don’t like that. I don’t like the feeling I’m left with when my time is sucked away.

I’m learning what I can handle and I can’t.

I’m learning what makes me feel drained vs what makes me feel full and I’m adjusting as needed.

I’m boundaries that I need to set and it feels so, so good.